Maybe this will help you

This poster is about my art journey, specifically when the pandemic hit, and I had just turned 30. Growing up, I was discouraged from pursuing art in any way and was sometimes even told that I'm not talented enough to be an artist. They may be right about my lack of talent. But part of my quarter-life crisis was this realization that even in art, if you put in the effort, you improve. I feel like age 30 was when I really embraced this idea and started to commit work towards it. Getting back to the poster, the zombies in the background are everything in my life that was holding me back from fully connecting with art, such as self-doubt and lack of self-agency. I broke out of the prison that I grew up in, took a swing at the zombies, and gained a couple of art skill points along the way (hence the paint on my spiky baseball bat and clothes). Maybe due to the abruptness of the escape, I don't feel perfectly equipped to navigate the art world yet, like a freshly made game character that's still picking up gears from tutorial quests. So that's why I'm walking around barefoot. Well, that's about it for the summary, haha. Thank you for reading this far, and good luck everyone! :)

I continued doing this , focusing less on contours but I feel like this time they are worse then I usually do my gesture sketches, they feel much less refined. and feedback would help