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Okay, so since I became committed and confident enough to finally join an art forum, I thought I'd just create a blog-type thing to post and track my progress until I get bored and maybe meet some new people along the way too!
I'm still learning how this site works, but it's Proko right?! It has to be good!!!
I'll probably either post some things related to Japan and Japanese culture since that's something that I'm very into! I've been posting art and artist struggles on Japanese forums before, so why not?! I mean, you can always delete your account and pretend like nothing had ever happened... ๐๐
@pinkapricorn To be honest, I'm pretty much the most critical one in the art-making process... For example, my class was on a road trip and they had one of those autograph books, I ended up drawing in it, and people went up to me to compliment, how good the drawing was, while I was mentally hoping they wouldn't notice, that how cupid's bow turned out, makes the woman I drew look like Hitler... ๐
That's the thing... Most of the art I make is just ugly to me, and it's so frustrating to be in the cycle where you can't really enjoy neither the process nor the outcome because everything seems wrong and ugly to me! Another example - I wanted to paint Emily from "Corspe bride" because it's the spooky season and I was enjoying the process of sketching, because I actually got the pose I wanted and was actually enjoying drawing, but when I started to paint over it, oh god, it was awful... And I just hate that I can't make what I want or what I think looks good to me, so that's why I'm so focused on improving! I can't even enjoy drawing for myself... I keep this kind of crappy sketchbook where I draw Limp Bizkit-esque people with really warped proportions and that makes me happy when I have the time to do that, mostly because they're supposed to look kind of ugly.
It's also some great advice, I've already made two stacks in procreate - one for figure drawings and the other for finished paintings, so I can get a better look at how much improvement has been made!
Yeah, the pain of misery and practically doing only studies drove me straight into the burnout hole and now I see things a lot differently - if you don't care about what you make, why make it? If you're only studying for some unknown mystical reason, why do it in the first place?
@pinkapricorn Accepting the mistakes and getting used to them is pretty much the hardest part, also a big motivator to do assignments from the courses - mistakes are about to happen and failing is probably going to happen.
I'd also love to see your sketches! I mean it's always very interesting to me to see other people's work!
That's also true! The most I've learned about art is probably through trial and error! But when it comes to my work, I work on it... have a break and then correct it or add some โจpazzazโจ. As you can probably tell, I don't trust the process that well yet...
Okay, so I've been on a vacation in Hungary and since I'm so busy I couldn't finish the piece for the proko skull challenge ๐ค๐
Figured I'd post a somewhat rough sketch here... Kinda spooky, kinda scary, kinda skeletoony! Gashadokuro! ๐ฆท๐
Feel free to think of them as Skelly's weird japanese cousins...
Okay, so I'm actually pretty blue, since I just don't have the time or the mood to draw - basically working on school stuff the whole time and when I sat down to draw this evening, nothing just went my way because I was so tired... Sleep is also a problem... I just can't seem to get enough... and oh, god, I'm so sick of everything...
I actually had fun starting to do an animation, but no, I can't because projects, projects and more useless uninspiring projects... I'm just so, so frustrated... I'm also going to Hungary next week, but I'll prolly still have to work/ do little bits of the stupid projects, because they just don't seem to move any further...
I want to spend time alone, drawing and just being with my own thoughts, not make slides in google docs... ugh...
Also an update...
Even the very little figure drawing I did - the right way, the Proko way did improve my figures and lines a lot, and I do seem to be recovering from my long-term burnout and creative block.. but oh, god, if I don't get more time for myself, I'll go insane... I'll go insane...
All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. All work and no play makes jack a dull boy.....
Asked for help
Okay, so it's the first day after of doing figure drawing/ gesture drawing the correct way! It's really really hard to quit my bad habit of copying the bumps of the body instead of doing everything like I'm supposed to - capturing the pose with simple lines and worrying only about movement rather than detail...
It's a control freak's biggest nightmare and it's pretty hard to get used to drawing a figure in just a few spaghetti - like lines... Here are some sketches from to day to not make this thread completely empty...
Any comments about how I'm doing so far? Any help would be appreciated!
keep it up, maybe put 2 marks for where your figure drawing 's gonna start and end so it doesnt go outside the page.
I feel pretty down, since when I'm out of school I'm either too tired to draw or there's work to do... Especially now... Why do teachers want to ruin the fall vacation by giving out unreasonable amounts of work... Ugh...
I'm still pretty unused to drawing for myself.. it's just weird, but I do feel like that's the main reason why anyone should do anything they like - for themselves, so hopefully I'll eventually get back into making art again for myself only!
I've also realized that I might be overly critical... turns out that's a big creativity stunter... As always, there's so much I need to work on... I also haven't been getting a lot of time to practice japanese for the same reasons + I study German at school, so as much as I love studying Deutsch, Japanisch takes the cake for me! I've been preparing for the Deutsch test the whole day... I feel positive about it, but I still don't know, you know...
Okay, and most importantly... I just need to be more patient and enjoy both the process of making art and whatever related activities come with it.. like painting... And I have to trust the process as well... but why is it so damn hard!? It's all a big UGH! ๐
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Alright, first post, starting with an entry for another contest relating to Japanese! It's definitely my favourite since it captures both the Nekomata and the overall feeling of those Japanese woodblock prints!
One of my biggest vices is not being patient enough with anything, so that's why most of the art I make is slightly rushed... and you can kind of see it... Trying to get better at it right now...!
I've been pretty busy lately, so I almost feel ashamed that I haven't posted much on here... Mainly because of school and other less important stuff than art... ugh... education and responsibilities am I right!??!!
I've also been having some gaps in my Japanese studies, but I also became less anxious about posting art and somehow beat my crippling YouTube addiction to the point where I don't need to have a wimpy kid audio book playing 24/7, so that's also progress, right?!
I've been pretty frustrated with my work lately, mainly because I realized that I have a lot to work on, which includes, but is not limited to - anatomy, patience, basic painting theory/ painting practice and figure drawing, rendering and construction... That Nekomata feels like the top of my artistic career honestly... I also hope to be more active on here... I mean I say that on every platform, but I really mean it, since the Proko website is made that there are no distractions and all of the content is in one place, so I have absolutely no reason to procrastinate on watching the videos!
I also want to start a separate anatomy notebook to really hone in the theory and learn better, and mostly importantly in the right way, because the way I used to learn anatomy previously was pretty awful and I have a lot of bad habits to get rid of... so here I am... kind of ready to tackle all of them!
And one more thing... I'm god awful at painting... really, really awful... I tried to draw the tanuki for the renshuu contest and I decided to challenge myself and paint the thing... and it's pretty pathetic in my opinion, so that's something I also have to practice... I'm more used to drawing, so it's a challenge to change both the mindset and workflow and practice my patience, since drawing is somewhat fast and painting is slow and takes time to get the right shape, edge and not to mess things up beyond repair!
Here's the thing, I looked at the image more closely and realized that I made the worst mistake of all - adding the details first ๐ญ Should have taken my time with blocking in the values...
**any tips for painting fur?** Also, what's your opinion on the painting so far...? It's not finished, but I'm starting to wonder if I should just start it all over again...
